Hello Angel. I waited until this time to post your Birthday journal because it was at this time 1 year ago that you came into this world. From the first time i saw your beautiful face I knew we would be the very best of friends. You became the most important, amazing thing in my life. Although we didnt get the time together we deserved, every minute we had was a gift and time that I will always treasure so deeply. I miss you every minute of everyday even though I do know that you are around me and will be till the day I come to join you. That day is something that I will never fear now as I know that it means we will be together once more. I tried to make today special for you baby but I wont lie it broke my heart not to be able to share your 1st birthday with you here. Such a milestone for those who are blessed to reach it. We put some flowers in the baby garden for you, you have baloons, cards, presents and so many of your friends sending their thoughts and love. I made buns and gave them to youre friends at the nursery, Grandma and Grandpa had one too. I saved a couple of special ones for you and blew out a candle and made a wish for you. There are a couple of balloons on their way up to you too baby you will need to catch them I have put a special note on them just for you. Daddy says Happy Birthday too Angel and he is missing you bad just like me. My little Eloise I love you so much, I would do anything to be able to hold you one more time, give you one more kiss see your beautiful smile hear your cute giggle. Everything about you was so special. I hope you are having fun with your little friends angel wherever that is. That you are celebrating your 1st Birthday by having a party, playing and having fun, just like we would have done if we were together here. Just know that your Mummy loves you and misses you desperately. Happy Birthday Angel. Te extrano te extrano te extrano mi amor. Mi angelita preciosa xxxxxxxxxxxx