I miss you every minute of everyday Eloise. Today was so hard without you here with me. I knew it would be a hard day but no day is easy. I went to the crematorium today. I don't know why I just wanted to do something for you. I got some pretty flowers and made a bouquet with feathers and butterflies and hid a little note in there for you. I put them in the chapel for you and lit a candle too. I have put some flowers on your table too lots of pink and White flowers for you. So pretty just like you are. It's your birthday soon angel. Just deciding what to do for you. Going to be heartbreaking that you are not here we would have had so much fun together with all your friends. Things progressing with the hospital baby we are getting justice for you. Nothing will ever bring you back but we fight on and have had many changes made already because of what happen to you. All because of you Eloise changes are being made at the hospital. Changes that mean no other child will suffer the horrendous errors and incompetence that we faced so many times when you needed help from them the most. It's in your memory, in your honour that the changes have been put in. There have been 5 already and many more to come. I hope you are proud. Devon talks of you alot she tells me you sit with her and tell her things. I am glad you are watching Devon she loves you alot. People always talk of you and ask about you, I saw your friends from your nursery the other week. They all miss you alot you were so loved. I love you precious little angel and miss you so much it hurts. Each day without you feels like an eternity but I know means one day closer to being with you again. I will never know in this lifetime why you were taken from me so pray there will be answers for me in the next when we are together again. I love you. Siempre conmigo mi amor te extrano con todo mi corazon xxxxxx