It has been four long and painful months Eloise. Without you here life just doesn't feel the same. You were my life, you always knew how much your mummy loved you, you know how much your mummy will always love you. The special little gift you sent for me means so much baby. I know it was sent by you to help me and I promise that I will do my best for you. I told you before I would make you proud and although things aren't too good for me at the minute this special gift means I will always be able to see a part of you, every kiss will be for you too every cuddle for you too. My arms will no longer be empty but will always ache for you. I will always be able to speak of you, tell stories of you and be sure that your little brother or sister will know how special and amazing you were. What happened to you has created changes baby, many changes so far many more to come. They will be made in your name angel. I got a lovely little box for all the money raised in your name so far. It's beautiful with your name on and I am going to put some of your special things in and put it in your cot. There is nothing that I wouldn't do to have you here now. We would be having so much fun playing in the sun. You lived to have fun you always had a smile. A beautiful little smile that made me smile too. I love you Eloise, I ache for you, I miss you precious little angel. Knowing you are around me keeps me going. How I wish things were different. I will never know why you were taken, such a pure beautiful baby I will never understand. I miss you my angel and love you more than anything in this world, always will and a day will never go by where you don't occupy my thoughts. Forever In my heart I love you Eloise, so much xxxx