Time feels to go so slow without you yet it seems like only yesterday that we were playing, learning and growing together. You taught me so much Eloise. Things that don't come in books. Things that only the love of your child can teach you. It makes me angry and sad that you didn't get time to do so many things, see so many things. That time was our enemy. If I had known what I know now would I have done anything different? I hope desperately that I did everything possible but I do think about stupid things like the fact you never tasted chocolate, you never had cookies or cake. I did give you icecream and I know you loved it! McFlurry! You never saw snow either. I will never forget the day we left the hospital. The darkest days of my life. The snow was falling and thick on the ground. It didn't stop to snow for about 3 weeks babygirl. I loved the snow, you would have too but now it takes me back to the start of the black horrible times. I miss you. I don't know what to do without you. I love you Eloise. Xxxxxxxxx